I thought that once I became naturalized, the border would disappear.
It didn’t.
The border didn’t go away.
It moved.
Now it lives inside me.
It shows up when I speak,
when my accent arrives before I do,
when my voice passes through a filter before it comes out.
I stopped being spontaneous.
I started listening to myself before speaking,
correcting myself in silence,
choosing safer words.
I learned to process myself before the system had to.
No one asked me to.
But my body understood.
The correction happened without instruction.
The adjustment, without being told.
I don’t cross a border.
I carry it.